Outside, My Hands are Clapping 


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Say New Words 

Outside, My Hands are Clapping 

Autobiographical storytelling from ADHD artist, Elinor Rowlands, who tells of family trauma and disability weaved into film and soundscape alongside poetic storytelling, movement and autistic body, to disseminate timely truths from a feminine gaze. 

Performed at Hammersmith Lyric, 6th June, H&F Arts Fest, this was the first time for me to perform live along with my video art. What I brought to this one day festival was a test, an experiment if you like, it began as a reading but then became so much more. I brought it, not completely finished to this Festival as an idea - 25 minutes. Since then, I've put it through development and it's become 35-40 minutes. 

It feels ready, and yet it continues to feel as my autism does, taking up space but not belonging anywhere, so as I hold this - I am also focusing on Say New Words, built on from this piece. A mapping of some kind, similar to the way the brain works in ADHD. 


Say New Words 

Building on from Outside, My Hands are Clapping, which follows stories from great grandparents, grandparents' own neurodivergence and Rowlands' own life as a neurodivergent woman, Say New Words calls for recognition of the neurodivergent language that is a completely different way of thinking, feeling and being for autistic/ADHD neurodivergent populations instead of being punished, excluded, rejected or blamed if you do not live up to the inspiring person that Atypical/mainstream populations and systems expect. 

Highlighting the damaging repercussions of being forced to adapt, behave, think and act in a way that is impossible and not natural for the autistic being especially working in the arts, or education forces audiences to consider why sciences/mathematics offers neurodivergent minds more space for this kind of thought or behaviour but the arts continues to not. 

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